Bigger 'n Nothin'

It was, by all accounts, a glorious weekend. Perhaps a tad chilly for some, but with the sun shining brightly and temps flirting with the mid-60s, it was pretty perfect for little old me. Makes me want to fill the window boxes of our house with bright-faced annuals to admire from the street and the comfort of our back deck, but Michigan natives warn me the finicky nature of the weather here makes it unwise to do so before Labor Day. We were due a glorious weekend, I think, as last week, when it rained, it poured...if only figuratively on our end. Though it is my understanding that it both rained and poured back in St. Louis, where the basement of our little blue house took on indoor pool status. As if a leaky basement weren't enough, our renters informed us that the water heater was leaking and the refrigerator was on its last legs.

Being a landlord is difficult enough, but doing it from a distance, finding reliable service people and coordinating repairs and replacements is a particular kind of stress. Truth be told, were the market not what it is, we'd consider selling the house just to get out from under it. But now's not the time. We promised our little blue house o' love a kitchen upgrade and some bathroom repairs before we sell and if things would just quit breaking down, we may be able to afford it in between tenants.

Enough about that, though! Saturday, itching to get out of the house, I found a listing for the Bigger 'n Texas Sale, billed as a "giant community garage sale" to benefit the Ann Arbor News. Sounded like fun browsing, so I pried Chris away from the computer and lured him out to the Washtenaw Farm Council Grounds to check things out. After paying $5 for the privilege of parking (reminding ourselves that we were supporting local media), we headed towards the sale.

To be honest, our first instinct was disappointment. I pictured something far grander in scale, but in reality the sale took place in two large barn-like buildings with tables set up in the middle of and around the perimeter of each room. Now, I've been to a few garage sales in my time. Even wrote about them for St. Louis Magazine once. But this, my friends, despite its promise (or, perhaps, because of) would qualify as the crappiest ever.

It was a strange mish-mosh of true garage sale crap -- tables piled with junk that was pushing it to have been purchased once, let alone trying for another go 'round -- and jewelry, crafts, perfume knock-offs and infomercial fare (complete with vegetable-peeling demo). Some of the crafts were obviously hand-made, possibly by blind people. Others were obviously purchased -- gross after gross of wooden roses tinted unnatural shades, for example -- and here for the resale.

It's likely that some of the stuff for sale, dusty and dented in its packaging, were straight off the back of the truck. And talk about variety! At one booth, you could buy a genuine bottle of Armani cologne -- a single box, slightly scuffed at a third of the usual price -- or walk tables away and save even more with a similar looking box of R. Mani perfume.

Chilly, or just like your throw rugs to make a statement? Consider the booth selling giant, garishly-colored synthetic fiber throws with subtle graphic imagery, like a half-naked woman or the Confederate flag (with or without "Git 'er done" acrodss it). Need a peg board with ducks on it? Ladybugs? Geese? Trucks? Cars? Boats? Cats? Dogs? Jesus? Anything? You're in luck!

It took us a whopping ten minutes to stroll by every booth, careful not to make eye contact with the desperate folk behind each table. (I learned the hard way by looking twice at the vegetable peeler display, mostly because I thought they were selling browning chips of sliced potato. I managed to free myself by declaring, "If my husband finds out I can peel vegetables, what's next? He'll expect me to cook them?")

Even accounting for hyperbole, whoever named this sale has never actually been to Texas. Or looked it up on the map. The Bigger 'n Rhode Island Sale probably wouldn't draw a crowd, but it'd have been more accurate. In fact, the only thing bigger 'n Texas here was the size of the average rear end. As a not-small woman myself, I confess to being stunned at the number of morbidly obese people lined up to buy small plastic buckets full of fries from the concession stands. I didn't even know there were this many fat people in Michigan.

We felt we had to buy something to justify the $5 entry fee, so we bought some alarmingly cheap replacement blades for Chris' razor -- which he needed anyway -- and came out about $2 ahead and rich in the knowledge that we would never make the mistake of repeating this event in the future.

The rest of the weekend went swimmingly. Saturday night we stayed in and finally watched The Good Shepherd, which has been sitting on our DVD player for about three weeks. (If you ever order a DVD from Netflix and it says "long wait" next to the status, the reason is people like me.) While it's still mildly adorable to watch Matt Damon attempt to play anyone over the age of 25, I think a better title would have been The Extremely Confusing and, Really, Only Moderately Interesting Shepherd.

Yesterday, as I mentioned, was glorious so after running a few errands, we hit Gallup Park in the afternoon, where Chris took a run and I did my version of walking (interspersed with brief, brief bursts of what barely qualifies as running) along the lake. Such a beautiful sight, people snoozing in the grass, whole families on bicycles, kids and parents cutting through the water in kayaks or paddle boats.

Then, being the true nature lovers we are, we headed to Ikea in the hopes of finding some chair cushions to make the adirondacks on our deck a tad more comfy. No dice in that arena, but no worries! We still spend $50 on crap I didn't know I needed until I got there. Gotta love the genius mentality of the place, "I MUST spend this money because it's so CHEAP." Or maybe that's less the mentality of the place than the mentality of me. Either way.

Developing the past

In the midst of this weekend's spring cleaning flurry, I unearthed two of those Kodak disposable cameras, each with just a handful of pics left on them. To the best of my knowledge, we have been carting these cameras around with us for years, moving them from house to house, obviously with the intention of finding out what the hell is on them at some point. And so, on Saturday, in a fit of purposeful activity that will not likely be seen again for months, I not only added developing said film to my list, I actually took them to Target and dropped them off at the photo counter. Truth be told, I was a bit excited to find out what they would produce. It's been years since I've bought a disposable camera and I assumed these might be leftovers from the cameras we had on the tables at our wedding in 2001.

In fact, considering our wedding photos turned out to be pretty disastrous--the photographer was a friend who didn't know her flash didn't work--I allowed myself to hope that not only would these be wedding photos but they would be, somehow, AMAZING wedding photos. The perfect shots, in which not only would everyone be in focus and properly lit, but in which I would also be twenty pounds lighter. Time (and the imagination) can do amazing things, after all.

I returned to Target today to pick up the photos. To extend my anticipation, like the infant I am, I made myself purchase the items I needed from the store before I could go and get the photos, let alone look at them. Finally, I handed a surly youth at the photo counter the stubs they'd torn off my envelope, pretty proud that I'd actually a) kept them, b) found them and c) brought them with me. He didn't even glance at them. He asked my last name and proceeded to look up my order alphabetically. SO WHY THE HELL EVEN GIVE ME THE STUBS??

But I digress.

I took the packets of photos to my car and opened them with great anticipation. The first set, sadly, was a total dud, a series of photos of some ballpark in Cincinnati. (It turns out Chris took them years ago when he was writing for the Post-Dispatch about the then-still-hypothetical new ballpark.) So that was five bucks pretty much wasted.

The second pack took me back--and aback. Apart from a handful of blurry, faded photos I took on the way to Target the other day to use up the last few shots, there were another handful of blurry, faded photos--and not of our wedding. In fact, they were from even before, apparently at a small going-away soiree at my house before Chris and I moved (and moved in together) to Indianapolis in 2000.

I don't actually remember the gathering, but it appears to be me and the women who were then closest to me from my recovery program. We're in my house, back when it was still just "my" house and not yet "ours." There are packed cardboard boxes sitting on a sofa table I no longer own. We're drinking soda out of red plastic cups, my real glasses no doubt stashed away for the move. Of the six women there, only three of us, to my knowledge, are still sober today.

I remain in contact with just one of them, my friend A. The other one, my old sponsor L., moved to Iowa and got married. I'm pretty sure she's still out there, doing the deal, living a happy life. I'm among the still sober, having marked ten years in recovery last September.

Of the other three, two just faded from the program, as people are wont to do. Last I heard--and it's been years since I heard anything or, frankly, even thought of these women--they were both still using.

The third woman in the photographs is my friend Susan. There are two pictures of her, more than any of the others. In one picture, she's standing in my living room doorway. She's dressed up, in a black suit and black-and-white striped top, like she just came from work. Her hair is short, blonde and curly and her mouth's open slightly, as though she's talking while I'm trying to take her picture.

In the other picture, she's mid-laugh, mouth wide, eyes crinkled at the edges. Just over a year ago, Susan died of heart failure at the age of 44, alone in the apartment she'd just moved into. She was going through a rocky divorce from her husband. She was using at the time and she'd been dead for a couple of days when her teenage daughter found her body.

For those of you who don't understand what the disease of addiction is like, these stats are actually pretty good--that 50% of us who gathered in my house that night are still alive and sober is far above average. Research on this stuff is always a bit hazy, but there's enough anecdotal evidence to suggest that if even one of us was still sober, we'd be ahead of the game.

It's remarkable to me that I discovered these photos today. This morning I was at a meeting with a friend I've known for about a year. He's one of those people I came to love very quickly and very much and, like so many people I've seen over the years, is struggling to reconcile the lure of his old flashy drug-fueled life and the comparable boredom (perceived and real) of sobriety. I've been thinking a lot today about how tenuous all of this is, how delicate and unlikely long-term sobriety can be.

Today is also my incredible sponsor's 24th sobriety anniversary and I was already--even before I got the photos--teary-eyed with gratitude to her just for sticking around all this time and paving the way for those of us who are desperate to find a light on the path, anyone who will just show us how this is done. What we do...it's not easy and there are no guarantees. That's not a plea for self pity; it's just a fact.

I've just taken another look at the photos and the fact that the film is grainiest and faded most on the photos of the women who have vanished is all a bit too dramatic, don't you think? If I wasn't holding them in my hands, if I saw this in a film, I'd declare it all too, too much. But that's just what they mean, isn't it, when they say that thing about life being stranger than fiction.

Chris has already pitched the ballpark photos into the trash can in his office. I'm not sure what I'll do with my set. Maybe I'll hang onto them for a little while. They'll sit on my desk for a few days, where I'll look at them and make a conscious effort to remember. Then I'm sure I'll stuff them in a box and, probably, move them with me next time we go somewhere. I suspect, at some point after that, they'll just vanish, just disappear, like photos and old friends sometimes do.

This 'n that

Not much to report in the last week or so. Had a cold. Went to Miami, with said cold. Don't worry, you'll be spared long, overly-descriptive entries about Miami. Similarly, you will be spared a host of photos of Miami, as my camera -- which has successfully made it on countless trips, abroad and cross-country -- somehow cracked its LCD display while sitting on my desk just before we left. Weird, huh? Chris was scheduled to appear on a panel at the Off Shore Due Diligence Conference in Miami on Wednesday morning and somehow convinced me to go along. Now, I should say that I am not, as a general rule, a fan of Florida. Not as a state, just as a general concept. I'm pale and sensitive to the heat, I don't like pastels or high-rise condos. Or alligators. So what's the point?

However, I do have a couple of friends in the Miami area and Chris did have us booked in a fancy hotel with a nice soaking tub...and you know how that can sway this girl. So, despite being sick with a rotten cold on Sunday, I went with him on Monday. At first things looked good -- we were upgraded to first class on the non-stop flight out there. Not just first class, but first ROW in first class. Does it get much better than that?

Yes, actually. It does. Like, most other places in the plane. While I am getting good at being a brave little flyer, things feel verrrry different in the first row of the airplane, where you are about one flight attendant and a narrow bathroom away from sitting in the pilot's lap. The cabin tends to shimmy and shake more than usual. Say you weren't feeling all that grand to begin with -- perhaps a bit jittery and grumpy -- and it might not make for a lovely ride.

Miami is for certain people. It is for women in tight pants and high, sparkly heels. It is for people who tan, as opposed to bubble, in the sunlight. It is for those who find heat charming and invigorating. It is for people who drive rented Bentleys and drink giant rainbow-colored drinks from plastic glasses in the cafes along South Beach. It is not, as you might suspect, for me.

But that's okay. Miami doesn't need me to buy it. Judging by the miles upon miles of giant concrete high rises that obscure the views on the drive between Miami and Fort Lauderdale (where we flew in and out), there are TONS of people who are just dying to live the dream. There must be thousands of condos and apartments in various stages of construction and renovation, all empty boxes muddying up the scenery, billboard after billboard promising paradise with an ocean view.

It was, however, delightful to see our friend, former Knight-Wallace Fellow Vanessa Bauza on her home turf. Didn't think it was possible, but she looks even more beautiful than ever. And I had a great time Wednesday afternoon catching up with my friend Lauren, who I met at the Iowa Writer's Workshop three summers ago and with whom I have kept up a semi-regular e-palship.

I can't say, however, I was reluctant to leave or that I'd be eager to return. It's a perfectly amicable separation between me and Miami. We just have irreconcilable differences.

Back in Ann Arbor, a couple of days of rain finally gave way today to a beautiful crisp spring Saturday, perfect for today's graduation. Chris and walked into town for lunch then spent the better part of the afternoon doing the kinds of chores summer's onset inspires -- putting away thermal gear, cleaning out the fireplace, sorting through winter clothes and making stacks for the Salvation Army.

We may not have the beach here in Ann Arbor and I'll still need to keep a few sweaters handy to keep me warm when a chill sets in. You won't see nearly as much skin as you would over coffee at the News Cafe on Ocean Drive in South Beach, probably not a man in a bikini singing for his cappucino. I'll stick with Michigan anyway. J. Lo and Gloria Estefan can hold down the fort in Florida for me.

Oh, crap...

So, the verdict is in: I didn't make it into the MFA program. It's weird, but I kind of knew on some level that was going to be the outcome, so I'm pretty accepting of it. That doesn't mean, of course that I'm not disappointed, usually in sudden bursts, and that I'm not struggling with extrapolating this to mean that I'm a gigantic pile of shit and should probably never write anything ever again ever for all time ever. That's just sort of how my brain rolls.

Sigh.

Any thoughts on how I should spend the next two years instead?

La Lana Wools

If you are not a knitter, look away! If you are -- or perhaps even just an appreciator of hand-made goods and pretty, shiny things -- then you may enjoy these additional photos from my trip a couple of weeks ago to La Lana Wools in Taos. Figgered they were purty enough to toss up here. La Lana Wools 02 As a non-dyer it's hard to believe that they manage to get all these shades using plant-based dyes. Some of the richer tones require double and even triple processing to achieve.

La Lana Wools 03 A pile of absolutely gorgeous silk and cotton blend gem tones.

La Lana Wools 04 Hard to tell from this photo but these were long ropes of hand-painted variegated yarns.

La Lana Wools 05 I don't even know what you call a yarn this thick and rope-y but it's got to be like knittin' straight from the sheep.

La Lana Wools 06 A peek at the wool yarns and roving in the back room.

La Lana Wools 07 These lovely wools had inspired names such as "greeny" and "bluey." Having been the childhood owner of one stuffed duck named "Ducky" and a doll named "Dolly," I can appreciate this type of quiet genius.

La Lana Wools 08 Baskets for roving for the spinning-inclined. One day I really will get to usin' the spinning wheel I bought from my friend Margaret.

La Lana Wools 09 Dried flowers, plants and even onion skins are used for achieving the colors of the yarns.

La Lana Wools 10 I'd probably never knit with something this thick 'n funky but, man, is it beautiful to look at.

I feel you, Jeff Tweedy

"I'm a lot happier than I've ever been. When you're dealing with addiction and depression, you end up not being as direct or as honest in the writing and the process as you'd like to be. The world is complex, confusing, scary enough. Before, I would make things too baroque, too complicated. Now I just want somebody to sing me some fucking songs." -- Wilco's Jeff Tweedy in an interview from the May-June '07 issue of Mother Jones

Home again, home again, jiggity jig

Is it braggin' to say that last night's Free Candy was among the best we've had? Probably. But I'm saying it anyway. We had super guests, a stellar audience and, best of all, Gene Dobbs Bradford and The Blues Inquisition were one of the most mind-blowing bands we've ever had. Ridiculously talented folk who also happen to be a bunch of great guys. You simply must check them out if you get a chance. (The drummer was kind enough to supply us with a few timely rim-shots, which I'm told made Amanda and me much, much funnier.) Speaking of Free Candy, about a year ago a friend here tried to convince me that we should start a franchise of the show in Ann Arbor. At the time, I didn't know if we'd be here long term and wasn't sure enough of the community. However, as it becomes harder and harder for me to get back to St. Louis on a regular basis, the idea of doing the show here becomes even more appealing. Let's just say I'm mulling it over, considering co-hosts and beginning to think about logistics.

Not speaking of the marathon, Chris did great yesterday. He came in just under four hours and 10 minutes, right around what he was shooting for. Considering it's his first marathon in a couple of years (SLACKER!) he's feeling really good about his performance. Best of all, he employed a walk-run technique (running 9 minutes, walking 40 seconds or so) for part of the race and it seems to have had a substantial impact on his recovery. He's in far better shape than he usually is the day after.

Of course, he's still insane for running 26.2 miles in the first place.

On a completely different note -- since I'm so obviously rambling anyway -- Lambert Airport was a zoo this morning when we arrived for our 8:50 flight from St. Louis to Detroit. Just crazy lines for security, snaking their way back and forth across the terminal. Apparently it's par for the course for Monday morning travel. Still, as we stood in line at the gate, the woman in front of me joked that perhaps it was extra security for all the NRA convention folk leaving town. We joked about people hiding weapons in their carry-ons.

It turns out that at almost the exact moment we parried back and forth about crazed gunmen, a man began a shooting rampage on the campus of Virginia Tech University, leaving more than 30 students dead. I read the breaking news as soon as we got back home to Ann Arbor and have been following the details all day since. There's nothing I can say about it that won't sound like a pathetic attempt at poignancy, a lament about the state of modern society -- and the media already have that covered, when they're not offering up confusing and conflicting details of the developing story. I'm just really sad about it, that's all.

And a little pissed at the press coverage. CNN had a photo on its front page for a while that showed police carrying a student out of the building. It was impossible to tell if the kid was alive, but he was at the very least passed out. I couldn't help but wonder if his family was reading CNN and if this might be the way they found out that their child had been injured or, worse, killed. This from a media outlet that, like most others in the US, won't show the coffins of soldiers killed in Iraq unless we find the "reality" too jarring.

It's a story like this one at Virginia Tech, too, that points out the drawbacks of the immediacy of online news reporting. So many facts are murky, so many conflicting details and all of it seems to be being thrown online with more regard for speed than accuracy. On both CNN.com and MSNBC.com today, the little slugs or factoids about the story conflicted with details in the main copy. At one point, CNN.com was reporting -- on the same page -- that the gunman was killed and was still at large. It's still hard to tell what's going on.

What does seem to be emerging, however, is a tale of inadequate response that goes far beyond the media. In the hour plus between the time that the gunman killed two in a dorm and embarked on the bulk of his killings in classrooms across campus, the university failed to shutdown the campus. Police assumed, apparently, that the gunman had left the campus and no further precaution was taken. A simple cautious lockdown could have saved nearly 30 lives. It'll be interesting to see how the buck gets passed along on that one.

I'm wondering if I feel this news just a tad more strongly now that I live in a college town, know kids at school here and walk through and around campus on a regular basis. There's something so jarring about school shootings, such a violation of what should be one of the last safe places. Like I said, it's just sad, sad stuff.

And they're off!

Chris before the marathon Runners are a strange breed and perhaps none are stranger than marathoners. Still, even as someone whose knee gives out after a mile, I can understand the thrill of it. I've just come back from seeing off Chris -- and 11,000 or so fellow runners -- at the St. Louis Marathon.

It is, without doubt, a stunning sight -- an ocean of fit folk lining up twenty or thirty deep on Market Street, just outside Union Station, bobbing in place as they wait their turn to run towards the arch and begin their journey. Nature's cooperating beautifully this morning, offering up an inspiring sunrise just within the bow of the arch.

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It strikes me that running in these races, despite the throngs of companions, is something of a lonely endeavor. It's surprisingly emotional to watch the person you love most in this world get swallowed by the crowd until you can't make his head out from the orbs around him. While you know that the crowd itself, the companionship and competition, is what makes it possible for many of these people to run a marathon, you also know that, when it comes down to it, this is a lonely game. It's up to the individual. He is on his own out there.

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Which is why it helps a lot to have your loved ones with you along the way, cheering you on at regular intervals. Unfortunately for Chris, as he reaches the most difficult stage, miles 16 and up, his loving and supportive wife will be having brunch at Margaret's house, stuffing her fat face beyond recognition. We all offer up support in our own way, you know...

Runs, guns, candy & art

It's a big weekend here in St. Louis and not just because Amanda and I are doing Free Candy tomorrow night at 7 pm at Hartford Coffee. No, it seems others are trying to take advantage of the crowds Free Candy will no doubt draw. It's also Venus Envy weekend, the St. Louis Marathon and -- as if that weren't enough -- the National Rifle Association convention. I suspect there will be strong overlap between the all-female art fans who attend Venus Envy and the gun-lovin' destructive bastards here to celebrate the NRA.

I've been here in St. Louis since Wednesday evening and, despite bringing Michigan-like chill and grey skies with me, have been having a dandy time playing catch-up with friends and family. And spending an inordinate amount of time at Hartford Coffee drinking, not surprisingly, an inordinate amount of coffee. I've also spent more time in a car, getting to and fro, than I have in months. Can't say I miss traversing highways, finding parking, as part of my daily life. If we moved back to St. Louis, I think we'd have to find somewhere to live where we could walk to some favorite haunts.

Earlier today we had a real treat, catching up with Chris' brother Joel, his wife Kathleen and their 'dorable baby Genevieve. They drove in from Salem, Illinois to meet us for lunch. Now we're chillin' at the coffee house and will spend the afternoon with more friends before heading to the 52nd City Sound issue release party this evening. This issue is in CD format, featuring sound files (music and other interesting contributions) from St. Louisans. Pretty cool stuff and precisely what you'd expect from the creative minds of editors Andrea Avery, Thomas Crone and Stefene Russell. Get one!

You know, in case you were wondering!

Pardon the mess

I've just upgraded to WordPress 2.1.3 and now the navigation bar that usually appears to the right of the entry is on the bottom of the page. Sigh.

I'll work on it as soon as I get a chance. In the meantime, don't blame me. Blame technology. That's what I do.

No doubt about it

We're home. We've been home from vacation, in fact, since last Tuesday -- nearly a week -- and yet I feel like I'm still adjusting. Must be the signs of a good time, eh? And, in case we have any doubt that we are no longer in the fantastic warmth of the Southwest, it has snowed to some degree virtually every day since we got home. I haven't had a chance to finish posting my journals from our vacation and I really do want to tell you all about the amazing time we had a 10,000 Waves in Santa Fe. Definitely one of the coolest places we've been and well worth saving up for a while to get yourself there. Unless you don't enjoy peace, serenity and relaxation -- with a little Japanese-style pampering thrown in. In that case, stay away from this place at all costs.

Gearing up to head to St. Louis on Wednesday. Amanda & I are doing a Free Candy at Hartford Coffee Company on Sunday night. Chris is flying in to join me on Friday and he's planning on running the St. Louis Marathon on Sunday afternoon. He'll be the jelly-like one in the front row at Free Candy. If you're in town and around, please join us at 7 pm at Hartford -- get there early if you want a seat!

In the meantime, I'm finishing up some work here and enjoying the fact that our good friend Graham Griffith is in town for a couple of days. He and some of the rest of last year's Fellowship class are doing a special seminar Tuesday to talk to the graduating class of Fellows about adapting to life after the dream year. Our advice? Don't do it. Probably not that helpful.

Taos, here we go!

033107 Taos Inn How many different ways can you describe a day as beautiful? Insert your own here. The weather served up the most delicious blue skies you can imagine for our last morning in Taos. However, I awoke having pulled something in my back rendering me unable to turn my head or move my upper body without excruciating pain. Fortunately, the giant comfy bed was a perfect place to lie and read while Chris tackled a pre-St. Louis-marathon training run of 13 miles around Kit Carson Memorial Park.

By the time he arrived back home, I had coaxed myself upright and began to gather our things together for our late checkout. Turns out he didn't quite take into account the elevation here -- I believe we're at about 7,000 feet -- and spent the first 1/2 hour of his run trying to catch his breath. But the trouper kept going and looks like he'll be in good shape.

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We opt for a second wander around town before we head south to Santa Fe. Specifically, I head back into La Lana Wools, having decided I couldn't possibly leave town without at least a few of their gorgeous (but pricey) skeins to make a souvenir scarf or something else small and pretty. The woman behind the counter has a wonderfully low voice and a bursting enthusiasm. She lets me -- no, encourages me -- to take photos of their gorgeous displays, urging me to make sure I get pics of the roving, the baskets of wool, the onion peels and other plant matter they use for dying the yarn.

I'm a sucker for orphans and bargains, so I pick some single skeins of silk from the discount bin in colors that mimic the southwestern skies and landscape -- a terra cotta pink, a shiny sand, a pale blue. Then I select a regular-priced skein in a deep turquoise. I have no idea what pattern I'll use -- perhaps knit something horizontally so the colors seem to blend like the strata of the earth -- but I don't care. I just want to own these little works of art.

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The woman at the counter throws in a free pattern. "The great thing about this yarn," she tells me, "is once you start knitting with you, it speaks to you and tells you what direction it wants you to go in." And, because this is Taos and because I am a knitter, I can tell her I know exactly what she means and not even feel a little bit weird about it. I ask her if they stay busy mostly through local knitters shopping here or if it's mostly tourists and web orders. "Oh," she says, with a smile, "however it's supposed to be, it is." And that, ladies and gentlemen, is the kind of mentality that makes Taos Taos.

040107 Weaving Southwest

We wander up the street a bit to some shops we didn't hit before. At Weaving Southwest, they have some of the most beautiful rugs, made by hand with their own dyed yarns. Deep, gorgeous colors, so different from the plant-based results at La Lana. I'm particularly smitten with a geometrical rug hanging on a wall, a pattern of grey and blue blocks. It's 3 x 5. It's also $2,000. Sigh.

In the backroom, small cubbies are loaded down with weaving yarns of all hues. I think of my friend Margaret, who's lately digging weaving, and glance over at all these strange weaving supplies -- a whole 'nother world of fiber art from knitting. She'd probably pee her pants in here. Figuratively speaking, one hopes.

We're also drawn into a little gift shop called Wabi-Sabi, partly because one of our favorite getaways in the world, Hix Island House, is built in that style and partly because we're heading to a Japanese-style spa in Santa Fe, so it all seems fitting somehow. Although this little gift shop specializes in Japanese gifts, there's actually a lot of congruity between this Japanese aesthetic of simplicity and natural beauty and the Southwest. Plus, the woman in the shop is just lovely to us, offering us cups of tea and chatting about what we do.

I sometimes like to pick up a small piece of pottery on our trips. I confess to knowing absolutely nothing about the art form but just loving certain kinds of pottery, particularly bowls or tiles, and I love having small pieces that bring back memories of travels. Here, I pick a bowl in greenish-blue with two simple flowers on it and, while I worried about the silliness of buying an import to represent a trip to New Mexico, it turns out it's made by a local artist. Perfect.

040107 Huevos Rancheros

We have time for a quick late breakfast/early lunch before jumping in the car and heading back to Santa Fe. This time, we opt for a place called Michael's Kitchen, a favorite of both locals and tourists for decades. It's just a regular ol' joint and I brave another round of huevos rancheros while Chris opts for some outstanding-looking strawberry pancakes. Two nuns in grey habits squeeze into the booth next to us. If you're wondering what nuns are eating this season, it seems the open-faced hot roast beef sandwich with mashed potatoes is the thing. And, as one of the nuns tells the waiter with an impish smile, "Lots of gravy."

040107 San Francisco de Asis

Then we're back in the car, stopping first in the area just south of Taos known as Ranchos de Taos. Here we checked out the historical San Francisco de Asis church, whose striking adobe facade has inspired artists such as Georgia O'Keefe and Ansel Adams -- plus, likely a host o' folks were inspired by what goes on inside as well. The church was so lovely that when we got back on the road, we forgot to backtrack to the road that would have taken us back to Santa Fe via the high road, an alternate to the Turquoise Trail route we'd taken north our first day.

No complaints, however, at having to follow the same path back. We weren't met with any storms this time, no cloudy skies and everything looked much pinker and, somehow, more hopeful as we headed towards Santa Fe. Or maybe that was just the way it looked through our eyes after two days of relaxation.

Taos, here we are!

033107 Taos We're staying in Taos at Casa Montoya, a little adobe-and-wood house about two blocks or so off the town's main plaza. It's a great location and a fine little dwelling -- basically a one-bedroom house with a lovely hot tub. It's probably more space than we need, but the gigantic bed with its fluffy mattress pad and silky-soft sheets assures us it's down with our mission for our brief stay here: to relax.

Today is Day Three of the Great Huevos Rancheros Experiment. For those who are not "in the know," huevos rancheros is a dish that usually involves a corn tortilla topped with eggs over easy, pinto beans, cheese and chili, served up with a side of flour tortillas with which to scoop up the sloppy mess. (Although not traditional, I like a dab of sour cream to offset the heat.)

033107 Huevos Rancheros

This morning, we've decided to make our own variation in the kitchen. We don't have any chili, per se, so our version subs salsa. We also used low-carb whole wheat flour tortillas and scrambled the eggs instead of making them over easy. The result is quite delightful, for those keeping track of such things. And we follow our full bellies into a post-breakfast soak in the tub. Multiple-times-daily soakings are sure to become a habit on this trip.

Afterwards, we take a stroll into town. Our casita is on a residential street where the houses are snugly situated, perhaps a bit too much so -- although a wooden fence separates the hot tub from the neighbors, you're still well aware of your proximity. Several houses on the street own angry-looking dogs -- pit bull and dobermans, or some mix thereof -- who seem to be held back with only a piece of twine. One house has four of them who bark viciously and growl as we walk by. It has a wire fence that seems inadequately high and a trampoline, for God's sake, on which the dogs sometimes rest. As soon as these dogs learn to bounce, the game is over for passersby. I make Chris walk closer to the fence. I figure it's harder for them to reach his jugular than mine should everything suddenly go awry.

033107 Taos Coffee Shop

Paseo del Pueblo is the main road that cuts right through the middle of Taos, running north and south. Since there's no bypass for the town, the traffic's surprisingly thick and heavy with anyone trying to get to and fro on Highway 64 forced through. The historic plaza is located at the intersection of Paseo del Pueblo and Kit Carson Road. There are loads of shops, cafes and art galleries -- most of the latter featuring work by local artisans -- in this area.

It's around 10 am when we walk into town and many of the businesses aren't even open yet. It's still considered Winter at this point, months off from high season, and some of the businesses don't open at all this time of year. No one has told the weather that it's winter, though, since the sky is gigantic and blue, the sun shining brightly. The shops right around the plaza seem to lean more to the touristy jick side of things -- your standard t-shirts, shot glasses, painted knick-knacks. Along Paseo del Pueblo, it's mostly art galleries, some coops and some feature the work of single artists. Honestly, we don't dip into many of them. It's pretty fantastic to be wandering around aimlessly, the snow-capped Taos Mountain hovering in the background.

Taos has a population of around 4,700 and it's estimated that about 20% of those are artists, including writers and, as ridiculous as it sounds, you can feel it in the air. Maybe it's the handful of "creative" looking locals holding down the bench on the front porch of the coffee house on the plaza -- an Anglo with long-grey hair and paint-splattered jeans laughs with a leather-clad biker and a young woman in combat boots and spiked red hair. But this is what it feels like to live somewhere that people create as a way of life, where the landscape inspires you to dream big and think in flowery, finished paragraphs.

033107 Taos Main Square

We're in full-on relax mode so while Taos has a number of small museums, mostly dedicated to the artists that helped redefine this town as an oasis for writers and artists in the 1920s or so, we've decided not to partake this time around. There seems to be no question that we'll return to Taos and get plenty of chances to do that. We're not here for the facts. We're here to let our brains turn to mush and do absolutely nothing we don't want to. We're doing a terrific job of it.

033107 La Lana Wools

My absolute favorite shop of all (not surprisingly) is La Lana Wools. For a knitter, it's a breath-taking offering, locally made yarns of all weights and textures, all of them colored using plant-based dyes. The hues are amazing, from rich jewel-toned silks to lace-weight skeins in airy blues to nubby thick ropes in natural browns. I want to grab a pair of needles and jump into one of the baskets brimming with hand-twisted skeins and knit until my arms fall off.

But I have a massage to get to! I'm splurging on this trip -- I'm going to get massaged within an inch of my life. I'm going to ignore my guaifenesin protocol and be slathered with essential oils at every turn. I'm a little worried how that will affect my overall wellbeing but, I'm hoping, the bodywork will offset it all. I hope.

I get a massage and a facial combo from Shenoa at Essential Massage. She is perhaps one of the most intuitive massage therapists I've ever met, perhaps because she has also been rear ended twice and copes with ongoing neck pain. Her work is intense but necessary for me, painful but in the way that I know will make a difference. And she's lovely, this massage therapist who, by the way, is also a trapeze artist, an aerial fabric performer, a stilt walker. She and friends perform high-flying feats with her boyfriend's band, The Last to Know, and as The Flying Desert Brigade at events, concerts and festivals around the country. Which all just seems so very...Taos.

Afterwards, Chris picks me up in my hazy, foggy, daze all heady and great-smelling with essential oils. We need lunch and, keepin' it Southwestern-real, opt for a suggestion from the guide book we picked up that morning. The massage place is a stone's throw from the Guadalajara Grill, recommended as a pick for good ol' fashioned Mexican. The fish tacos are, quite frankly, pretty mediocre and the barbacoa beef on Chris' tacos are disappointing, almost no flavor. Wouldn't put this one on the list of recommendations and, by the time we're through, my tummy is suggesting we hold off on the Southwestern food for a meal or two.

It's back to the casita after that for a mid-afternoon soak in the tub. While I'm not the world's biggest hot tub fan -- the chlorine smell alone is off-putting -- I can't deny the physical benefits of being able to dip in whenever the mood strikes and soak away a half hour. While we're in the tub, a couple of magpies emerge from their giant nest in a nearby tree. One comes to sit on a telephone line in front of the house, its belly a magnificent white, and sings to us.

It's nothing but relaxing and dozing for us for the rest of the afternoon. That evening, we head out for something distinctly non-Southwestern and are pleased as punch with the pies offered up at Taos Pizza Out Back. Again, it's another little charmer of a restaurant fashioned out of a rickety shack, painted warmly and decorated in that sparse Southwestern style. The staff's a little dopey, but the pie with its whole wheat crust and fresh ingredients certainly earns its word-of-mouth reputation as being pretty super.

I didn't remember until I was on my way home tonight that Julia Roberts lives in Taos and now, quite frankly, I am completely pissed off that I haven't seen here. I would think she would make an effort to welcome us or something. Not even a card or a note. Nice.

Taos, here we come!

033007 Along the Turquoise Trail Today has been a pretty glorious day. I awoke well-rested for what felt like the first time in weeks and was even able to accept that I just don’t have what it takes to be a Coyote Ugly girl. Which is probably just as well.

We got a bit of a late start and decided to grab a bite to eat before heading out of Albuquerque. Despite how non-descript the area feels to me, the mountains around here are pretty stunning. Yesterday, I was waxing poetic about how different the Sandia Mountains are to those we see in Puerto Rico. In PR, everything is lush and green and the rain clouds hug the mountain tops. Here, yesterday, the peaks of the Sandia Mountains were stretching fully into the sky with the clouds maintaining what seemed like a respectful distance. This morning, however, the clouds have descended and are obscuring the tops of the mountains. The sky here in Albuquerque is bright blue, but there’s talk of some storms further north, even a little snow, which seems impossible from where we’re sitting.

Chris points us towards The Range Cafe, a restaurant he visited during one of his sleuthing trips. It delights. It’s cool and funky, just the gem you want Albuquerque to show you. The chair rail reaching around the room carries a strip of mosaics that shift every two feet or so — bright fishies swimming through shards of irridescent blue glass, a sweet roll and cappucino rendered in glazed ceramic, stained glass cactus and hand-painted cowboy boots.

033007 The Range 01

We continue with what we decide will be a culinary theme of our trip — Huevos Rancheros of the Southwest. Here, the variation includes white cheddar cheese and a yummy blue corn tortilla, plus two kinds of chili. And while I’ve never met a potato I didn’t like, the home fries served on the side just seem superfluous and, somehow, ingenuine. We declare this our favorite entry so far and worry a little about what our tummies will declare later on.

We’re taking what is called the Turquoise Trail up to Santa Fe today, at which point we’ll see if we have time to take the scenic route to Taos or the more direct route. What’s slightly amazing to me is that we start our trip on US 40 and, although we’re hundreds of miles away, I’m on the very same highway I used to drive nearly daily when in St. Louis. It feels connected and sweet and nostalgic to know that if I wanted to, I could just keep going and this road would take me all the way back there.

033007 Along the Turquoise Trail 01

The mountains on either side of the road look like they’re from a model train set — all sandy and dotted with rough green bushes, like the kind you made by wetting down green tissue paper and squishing it into a clump. It’s a pretty forbidding landscape and even though the summer weather will warm the surrounding tones in a month or so, it’s still hard to imagine that anyone saw in this an invitation hundreds of years ago, and decided to build homes, forcing their roots down through unwelcoming soil. It says something about the people here, speaks to a resilience that works its way from the inside out, hardening the skin as much as the sun and the elements.

At Exit 175, a mobile home coming in the opposite direction has a strip of snow across its bumper and, suddenly, we are driving through a sparse flurry that dissipates as suddenly as it appears. Strange.

It is 52 miles from Albuquerque to Santa Fe on the Turquoise Trail, which officially begins when you exit Highway 40 and take 14 North. As if it knows where we are, our iPod kicks in the distinct Southwesterny horns of The Mavericks’ "Dance the Night Away" and I get that surreal feeling I get sometimes, like my life is a movie and this is the soundtrack and we’re getting to one of the interesting bits.

You can take hours, we’re told, to drive the Trail, stopping at every point along the way — the tiny town of Tijeras; the archeological museum in Cedar Crest; the Tinkertown Museum in Sandia Park. You can take a side trip into Sandia Mountains Cibola National Forest and drive to the Sandia Crest, the mountain’s highest point at 10,000 feet. You can stop in Golden, where the first gold rush west of the Mississippi took place. But we don’t. We’re trucking, digging the serenity of our drive, gaping and gawking at the landscape.

033007 Old Mine Shaft Tavern

We pull off the road in Madrid, a former coal mining town that was revived in the 1970s by artists and is now a funky little community that mixes hoaky museums — the Rattlesnake Museum, the Old Coal Mine Museum — with working artist’s studios and souvenir shops. As of the 2000 census, the population was 149. Remember that episode of the Brady Bunch when they get stuck in the old Western town? It feels a bit like that, only much funkier.

We pull off the road in Madrid, a former coal mining town that was revived in the 1970s by artists and is now a funky little community that mixes hoaky museums — the Rattlesnake Museum, the — with working artist’s studios and souvenir shops. As of the 2000 census, the population was 149. Remember that episode of the Brady Bunch when they get stuck in the old Western town? It feels a bit like that, only much funkier.Our first plan of action is to use the restrooms inside The Mine Shaft Tavern. Having tourist guilt, we order up a cup of coffee to earn our entree into the toilets. This place is the real deal, dim inside on account of all the wood — from floor to ceiling — soaking up the sunlight. There’s an honest-to-goodness ancient cowboy at the bar, drinking a bottle of Coors before noon, complete with waxed moustache, shoulder length grey hair, worn brown suede hat, a jean jacket studded with rivets. He smokes hand-rolled cigarettes and a pair of worn, creased leather work gloves sticks out from his back pockets. A sign above the bar, posted in between old west murals, reads: "Welcome to Madrid. There is no town drunk — we all take turns."

The roof’s held up with large wooden beams, laquered to a brilliant shine, and the bar is constructed of logs. There’s a stage that attracts acts from all around and the stage lights rigged to shine in its direction are covered with old coffee cans painted black and coated with what looks like decades’ worth of dust. At the opposite end of the room, a buffalo head gazes down from above the brick fireplace.

If I had to pinpoint what exactly separates the new Southwest from the Old West, I’d probably start with the yoga flier in the bathroom and the machine that gives out free condoms but warns, via a hand-lettered sign, that "quantity won’t improve your odds or your looks."

Everyone here is friendly — the waitress turns out to be relieved that we only want beverages. She’s having a busy day, tables crowded with tourist families, a group of retiree golfers from the resort up the road, upscale shopping ladies with expensive scarves and funky woven jackets, locals ordering up "the usual." Heading out, we first check out the small collection of shops right by the Tavern. There’s a genuineness here that seems to far surpass anything we saw in Old Town. The stores are tiny, many of them converted from the former mining company buildings.

033007 Madrid Herb Shop

We stop in an herb and tea shop, outside of which is a table offering up small hunks of minerals, each with a handwritten note detailing its specific promises — everything from confidence to peace to strength. Inside, the beautiful young woman who runs the place tells us she makes custom herbal blends, offers us up some variations. "Lover’s blend?" she says, smiling broadly. In a little shanty attached to her store proper, constructed, it seems, of tree branches and found objects, she also sells some hand-knit hats, a few items of clothing, some dusty old bottles and ceramic mirrors. It’s a crazy, ecclectic mix and probably says everything you need to know about Madrid.

033007 Madrid Turquoise

At the next shop, a woman sells jewelry, much of it silver and turquoise. Some of it is by artisans on nearby pueblos (that’s Indian reservation to the uninitiated), but much of it she has made herself, even hand-mining the turquoise on the land she owns. As I mentioned, I’m not a huge fan of turquoise, but her stuff is really lovely. It’s called Cerrillos turquoise and has a much paler, greener hue to it than the fakey deep blue stuff we’re used to seeing in shops, much of which is manufactured. There I buy a lovely little copper cuff bracelet by a local artist, stamped with tiny suns, moons and stars, forgetting — or choosing to ignore — that it will turn my wrist green in no time. At $12, it’s a steal.

At a small gallery just a few paces away, Color & Light, I fall in love with these amazing enamel/metallic/tile pieces by a local artist named Zingaro. Yes, he goes by the one name. I like his stuff anyway. I’m still not clear on the process, but the result are these mosaic-slash-montages of coppery enamel tiles, some with silk-screen imprints of flowers rendered in powdered metal. They’re like rich, deep quilts of tremendous hues. The piece I like best is the largest one featuring lots of burnt orange, yellow and red. It costs $3,200. And for one, brief moment, I seriously consider the credit line on my Visa and the freelance projects looming on the horizon. At that moment, $3,200 seems a perfectly reasonable amount to spend on a piece of art that was, after all, so clearly made for me.

Logic, however, prevails. The gallery owner is tremendously generous with information, showing me some work of Zingaro’s that she doesn’t have room yet to display. She gives me her card, tells me he’s doing some smaller pieces for her in the $200-$300 range which, at that point, sounds like pocket change.

It turns out that the "main drag" of Madrid is a few yards yet up the road, a dusty two-lane affair. Former homes have been transferred into shops selling everything that could possibly be filed (sometimes dubiously) under the heading of "art." Much of it is produced locally, some by artists in town or the surrounding area, many of them Native American (American Indian? It gets confusing what’s the right term) artists.

033007 Madrid

It’s a strange day weather-wise at this point, the sun wrestling with the clouds, the air warm one minute then chilly the next. Also strange, but not weather-related, are the number of posters for the movie "Wild Hogs," starring John Travolta, William H. Macy (why?), Tim Allen and Martin Lawrence. Fortunately, it isn’t just that this is a town full of people with bad taste in film. They’re just a little proud about Madrid’s latest claim to fame. Apparently, the movie was both set in and filmed in Madrid. In fact, one of the more inviting storefronts, a pretty purple diner, turns out to be a set, built for the film.

As I’ve mentioned before, our timing for this trip is – depending on your perspective – either a bit off or right on. We’re hitting the area in the last week of ski season and well before the busy summer tourist months kick in. It means that a lot of the shops are closed, which kind of gives Madrid a ghost-town feel in spots, which seems entirely appropriate.

We easily killed a couple of hours just hanging in a town probably no bigger than a city block or two and, as we headed back to the car, the oddest thing happened – it started to hail, tiny pea-sized orbs that stuck in my hair and landed softly on the fleece of my jacket. Somehow, it seemed perfectly natural that such a thing would happen in Madrid.

On the road again

Back in the car, heading north, we zip on up the road, hail behind us, passing the rather spooky-looking Allentown prison. Somehow, we miss the bypass road for Santa Fe and are sentenced to crawl through a main drag of low-slung fake adobe strip malls. When we pick our way over to 84/285 North to Taos, light snow is flurrying around the car. Then, just north of Santa Fe, the sun is shining brightly and for a short time, perhaps 1/8 of a mile or so, we have both light snow and bursting sunlight.

The landscape along the highway is broken by billboards for the casinos on the pueblos that flank either side of the road. Straight ahead of us, mountain ridges glow rose-colored in the afternoon sun even as a dark grey curtain of clouds glowers behind them. If the signs here are to be believed, drunk driving clamp-down is fierce, new members get free slots, and the correctional department, a happy-looking bunch, is hiring. Also, you might win $1 million, one of four new cars, or just your turn at an all-you-can-eat buffet.

033007 Rio Grande

In the town of Espanola, the RV park boasts a day spa. Only in the Southwest, people. The sign says they do permanent make-up and all I can picture are trailer park ladies getting bright-blue eye shadow, brown pencil eyebrows and carnation pink lipstick forever emblazoned on their skin. As we pass a sign for a tattoo parlor, Chris says, "I want a giant tattoo of a dream catcher on my back." He pauses for a moment. "Or maybe that Indian crying about the trash."

We are taking the low road to Taos, saving the scenic but slower high road for the drive back. This path follows alongside the Rio Grande, although we are driving against the current. It curls us through mountains that tower above us, raw and jagged, deep pink in places like open wounds, pale as sand in others, rippling into themselves like the folds of a skirt. The Rio Grande fairly rushes in some points fueled, I suppose, by melting snow in points further north. We are staying at Casita Montoya (yes, as in, "my name is Inigo Montoya," dot dot dot), which is within walking distance of the Plaza and the main shopping intersections of Taos. It’s a lovely little place, with a kitchen, living room, bedroom, a kiva fireplace in the corner and a hot tub out back. Suitable for people of our class.

033007 Casa Montoya 01

We hoof the block or so into town, passing an unsettling number of angry dogs tethered by what seem rather flimsy fences or lengths of string. Why are the dogs of Taos so upset? It’s gorgeous here. The snow-covered peak of Taos Mountain looms in the distance, the town – population around 6,000 – is full of shops, cafes, galleries, etc. Everything is well-kept and the streets are relatively quiet since we’re not heavily into tourist season. A dog should be happy.

From this point on, we proceeded to do a lot of nothing – some reading, some relaxing, some soaking in the hot-tub. We dine that evening at a local favorite called Orlando’s, a small brightly-painted spot that serves up New Mexican fare. While we wait for a table, we sit outside on wrought iron chairs placed around two open-pit fires that provide more smoke than warmth in the air that is fast chilling as the sun goes down.

There’s a fake cowboy, who grumbles when a local stirs the fire and accidentally sends ashes flying in his direction. He’s maybe 60 or so, all dudded out in brand new pressed jeans, giant turquoise bolo, pristine hat and leather gloves (which may be Isotoners). His jacket is seeping fringe and he’s drinking a California red. He rests his Ostrich-skin cowboy boots on the edge of the metal fire pit. It must have cost a fortune, this outfit. As he grouses about the ash landing on his jacket, his wife smiles apologetically at everyone around them, then turns and assures the faux cowboy that he’s alright. I get the feeling she does this a lot. I think in his day job, he’s either a car salesman. Or a basketball coach. Something that makes you think you’re important but doesn’t require you to have any manners.

We end our first night in Taos with a dip in the hot tub. It’s probably 30 degrees outside and we fairly steam as we rest our heads backwards and gaze, wordlessly, at a sky so full of stars it’s like they ordered up extra just to show us how it’s done. Or maybe the fake cowboy paid to have them shipped in. Either way, it’s glorious.

One night in Albuquerque

032907 Albuquerque-7In 1988, the Ballard Bruins, my high school's boys' basketball team, made it to the national finals, which were held in Albuquerque. It was the first time I recall really hearing of this town and not much of a touchstone for anything. Then, about nine years ago, I flew through Albuquerque on my way to California. Still a smoker at that point, I snaked my way through their giant Taco Bell of an airport to step outside for a ciggie and gazed out at the flat landscape thinking, "Huh." Now we're in Albuquerque for a day (and a night) and I'd have to say my reaction is pretty much the same. In fairness, let's set the scene: Chris and I are headed for our first pure R&R trip in a year. We cashed in our coveted Southwest frequent flier tickets for a couple of freebies out here and are booked for two nights in Taos and then two more in Santa Fe. However, in order to meet whatever baloney regulations accompany said tickets, we found ourselves having to fly in one day early. We couldn't get an extra night in our Taos digs, so we threw up our hands and in the spirit of adventure, figured it could be fun to spend a night in Albuquerque.

Again: Huh.

Oh, right. Back to fairness... In order to make our 7 am flight to Albuquerque via St. Louis, we had to rise at 4. Needless to say, we were dithering around until the last minute and, coupled with pre-vacation excitement and the I-have-to-get-up-how-soon-jitters, we didn't fall asleep until 1. I'm not good without sleep, people. Let's face it, I'm not that good with sleep.

I will say, however -- and Chris will even vouch for me -- that I'm becoming quite a little trooper when it comes to early morning travel. Right up until I hit the point where I've been up for six or seven hours and then I crash like an evil beast, all horns and thorny comments, hurling accusations and bile in Chris' general direction. He gamely calls this my being "done."

By the time we landed in Albuquerque, picked up the rental car and headed away from the airport, it was about noon our time, 10 local time, and I was still doing fairly well. We decided vittles were of the first priority while we killed time before checking into our hotel. Chris pointed us towards the campus of the University of New Mexico, a very beige institute of higher learning, and we headed to the legendary Frontier restaurant for breakfast.

The Frontier is a 24-hour joint that serves up New Mexican food, traditional breakfast fare and burgers, etc. since the 1970s. At first just one storefront on Central Ave, it has slowly swallowed neighboring joints so that it stretches horizontally into a mishmash of dining rooms practically the length of the block. It's giant. When we were there, there was no line at all, but signs placed at distances throughout ("10 minutes wait from this point") suggested that when it gets busy, the line stretches the length of the place. Nice.

Like good Southwesterners, we ordered up a couple of plates of huevos rancheros and took a seat to wait for our number to be called. It gave us a chance to make sure we were in keeping with the restaurant's posted rules, which include "No yelling or profanity," "No firearms (No exceptions)" and something about no hoods worn up on the head.

We sat down at a window booth and chased our eggs and beans across the plate with amazing fresh warm tortillas that put the packaged crap to shame. A delicious mess. Is there a right way to eat huevos rancheros? Hunched ver your plate, fingers dripping, utensils lying clean and mocking to the side?  

But, as they say, a body at rest... As soon as I sat down, I could feel myself fading. And we still had 2-1/2 hours until hotel check-in.

Next we tried a perk-us-up coffee at Satellite Coffee, a block or two from Frontier. But sitting with caffeine is still sitting and I was heading, dangerously quickly, for "done." So we trolled the internet a bit for something really exciting and stimulating to do in Albuquerque and came up relatively blank. That's not to say there isn't something to do here. There must be, for God's sake. It's just to say that we couldn't find it.

So we headed on over to Old Town, Albuquerque's first neighborhood, dating back some 300 years. We drove through downtown on Lomas, past the brand-spankin' new courthouse and the gigantic scales of justice. The sky here is gigantic and the landscape at this time of year the very same beige of all the adobe buildings. Everything is the color of putty, including the landscape. Even the strip malls, filled with familiar national chain names, adhere to the adobe style which makes everything seem muted and unmemorable. The minute you pass something, it's as though you never saw it.  

We missed Old Town on our first pass through but since we were on historic Route 66, we followed it a few miles further west just to get our first glimpse of the Rio Grande which was a nice cooperative brown at that point, high and moving slowly.

If you'll permit me an aside here...when I worked at a marketing firm in the mid-1990s, we produced direct mail for car dealers and auto manufacturers. Car dealers are known for their exquisite taste and subtlety so, often, the account executives would come back and request that the letters, flyers, brochures, etc. contain more flashy, useless elements...starbursts, colorful emblems, that sort of thing. One of the guys who worked there referred to this stuff as "jick." It's a terrific word, still used by those of us who survived our tenure there but left years ago, to refer to the sort of colorful, useless crap life often presents you with. I think you can see why it's relevant to this story...

Located as it is in between run-down strip malls along historic Route 66, Old Town is a couple small blocks of adobe buildings that once housed important figures during the city's inception and now house...jick. Jewelry, souvenirs, statues of Native Americans, shot glasses, etc. plus a few restaurants and cafes nestled in there for good measure. It's possible that there's some truly exceptional handiwork there, but it's tough to pick through everything. Plus, the truth is -- and it's sacrilege in this part of the country -- I'm just not much for the turquoise. And it never helps anything, ever, when an authentic adobe hut selling sparkly and fringy overpriced clothing advertises itself as a "red hat zone." Nothing good can come of it.

If I weren't so grumbly at that point, I would probably have noticed that even though it was very quiet while we wandered around -- some of the shops aren't even open at this time of year -- it was an unbelievably gorgeous day. And even I, with my jaded, weary heart, was moved by the simple beauty of the San Felipe de Neri Church.

Having killed a remarkable amount of time in Old Town, without purchasing anything other than a cup of coffee, it was time to head to the hotel where a nap in a big, comfy bed was beckoning me. It turns out that the nomenclature of the Best Western we hotwired may well have been ironic. We usually do really well with the internet crap-shoot that is online hotel room bidding, but there's  just not much you can do when a hotel billed as three-star simply ain't. You can't change the thick layer of dust on the fake plants in the lobby, the scowling welcome from the pock-marked faced youth behind the counter. Nor can you change the concerning existence of a giant cigarette burn on the bed blanket in a non-smoking hotel or the disturbingly cloying scent being pushed through the air vents.

You can, however, whine about it to your husband. A lot. Still whining, I crawled into the bed and we did what any good American tourist would do in a new city: turned on the TV. Since we get no TV reception at our house in Ann Arbor and don't have cable, you must remember that this is a relative luxury to us. And so while we navigated that strange travel-induced space where you're tired but can't sleep, we marveled at what we'd been missing and caught up on some crucial programming: the search for the Ultimate Coyote Ugly girl on Country Music Television. For two hours. Man, was it nerve-wracking! Would Kassi master the "devil" dance? Could Amber master flair bartending? Could Gina conjure up enough personality to match her breasts? Fantastic television.

Somehow we napped anyway, dreaming of cut-off shorts and dancing on bars, that fitful sleep of travelers where you constantly jerk awake like you've stepped off something. Then we headed back down to the college area in search of a slice of pizza. We were surprised at a) how early a lot of things close down here, considering their proximity to the campus and b) how many times we were approached and asked for money during a two-block walk. I must say there's something slightly seedy about Albuquerque, the sense that you're not entirely safe.

We wound up eating at Saggio's, a local favorite pizza joint, where the wood-oven pizza was absolutely delicious, and the crazy decor and wall murals were the perfect thing to gaze at in our post-nap dizziness. Then we took a quick drive over to Nob Hill, a two-mile stretch of Route 66 that's home to Albuquerque's more sophisticated side, with boutiques, record stores, tattoo parlors, coffee shops, restaurants, art galleries and more. Unfortunately, by 9 o'clock on a Thursday night, most shops were closed.

Still, we really dug the Satellite Coffee location in Nob Hill. This one has a pretty full menu of sandwiches and salads, etc. plus a to-die-for dessert case. Chris had a peach melba tart and we enjoyed a couple of lattes. I was especially impressed by the selection of magazines available for purchase, everything from your regular periodicals to special interest mags, alternative pubs and lit mags. Nice touch for a coffee house.

Then it was back to the Best Western (or, if I were feeling particularly clever, the Worst Western or the Dust Western), to sleep perchance to dream, knowing Taos awaited us the next day. Just as we were falling asleep, Chris stirred.

"Honey?" he said. "I miss the Coyote Ugly girls."

"Me, too, sweetheart," I said. "Me, too.

 

 

More on memoir

It's Memoir Week over at online mag Slate. Last week I wrote about Dave Eggers' advice about telling people you've written about them. Slate is offering up a series of relevant articles by memoir authors -- including Frank McCourt and Sean Wilsey, whose memoir Oh, the Glory of It All was name-checked by Eggers as a must-read -- writing about how they told their families and friends about their memoir. Interesting stuff if you're interested in that sort of stuff.

01.20.09

I saw the date on a bumper sticker yesterday, accompanied by the tagline: "Bush's last day in office." Jarring, isn't it? Nearly two more years of this. A quick glance at the headlines and I've got stomach cramps worrying about what else can go wrong -- and then, likely, get swept under the rug -- in the next two years. I'm still reeling from the Big Brother-esque revelations of the Gonzales-and-US-attorneys scandal that's brewing. I'm not entirely sure what scares me most: the idea that this sort of control tactic went on or that Bush and his lackey Tony Snow have the audacity to respond petulantly, acting like the whole thing's a "nuisance" and that they're doing a favor offering their ridiculous "generous offer" to have Karl Rove and Harriet Miers testify to Congress in private and not under oath.

Seriously? How does this stuff even continue to happen?

As if that weren't enough, somewhere hidden in the pages of the news this week was the tale of a little bill in the South Carolina legislature that requires abortion providers to show their patients an ultrasound of the fetus before performing the procedure. It sounds ridiculous, doesn't it? The idea that this sort of emotional blackmail could be mandated. But it's happening and, frankly, it's terrifying.

Sigh.

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